September 13, 1969
 8lbs 9oz  Saturday 2:05am
  Took me
a while to get over it; was born sucking my fingers and I liked it!  First thing mom said was, "A twin!  She looks like Christy."  Christy didn't suck her fingers, she wet the bed, and how do i know?  Because i got my own room when turning 3 months old... and had to share it with her!

 Every kid has to have a dog.
 We just happen to have several.
 Sebastian took advantage of his position as the cute dog.

 Played baseball, being the only girl on the team, the coaches put me in position as pitcher... T-Ball .  The irony?  The boys would goof off and it would make me mad so one day i quit because the way they were acting meant we weren't going to win and i didn't want to lose!  Then my dad said, "No! You finish what you start!" The coaches called up wanting me to come back but had told them how the boys needed to take it seriously and although a girl, very little girl, wasn't that bad of a player, but i did obey dad while the coaches agreed to tell the boys to shape up.  Went back to the team and "The Ponies" won first place.

 Speaking of ponies, did my share of that too.  This photo is only one pose because we lived in the city (Santa Clara, California), across the field from Marriott's Great America Amusement Park.  Did have a few horses growing up where i entered into pole bending, barrel racing, and horse showing contests.  Wasn't very good, placing 3rd, 4th, maybe even 2nd once, but did enjoy the activity. 

 Rode & played sports like a tom-boy but really was a
  girly-girl.

 Things need to mean something in my world even if i have to make them up...
  Cindy's Dictionary
Along with making up words and putting meaning to them, inside my dictionary is also some thoughts from meditations that come to me while driving, reading passages then thinking about them, pondering while cooking, or something like that.

                                                      10:16am Friday Aug 15, 2008  
                               There is no such thing as forgetting if you are able to remember~ 
                                                                         ~CAP

This thought came to me because of hearing many times people say "I just forgot" but say it right when in the act of remembering, and was thinking how negative speech could be, that if we could train ourselves to say it more positively, "i just remembered," would life be improved somehow?

                                                     5:03pm Thursday March 1, 2007
                             Leave room for understanding what only patience can interpret~
                                                                        ~CAP

Thinking this came because many times we want to know 'right now' what's going on but tend to misjudge the situation for not wanting to wait any longer because the minute the story makes just enough sense we grab for the control then think we already know the answer.

                                                    9:16pm Thursday Sept 20, 2007
           If change doesn't come from the outside then speak really loud LORD on the inside~
                                                                        ~CAP

Spending think time here about how our actions carry a voice and reveal things about our ways.  Then thought how easy we could deceive people if we manipulate so really couldn't use action alone to judge accurately.  Then thought how life in God's Kingdom is lived from the inside out anyway so whenever He looked to me and needed something to change could He please speak loud so it would be easier to know that it was Him because it would be easy to find a debate if not wanting to change even though knowing i must.      
                                         
Know why i like Pillar?  A. Great guitar  B.  At some point in his life my biological dad was a professional jazz drummer.  When you put a guitar together with drums it makes this sound like you are really saying something when you talk, and these male singers, even in their scream make you feel like they are giving away everything in their being, using their entire heart for what they believe in.  It's great! Do love gentlier music also, in third grade the chosen instrument for music class was the violin, learning only how to play "Three Blind Mice" because of needing to stick with it.  Tried keyboard, music lessons, this kind of stuff but still don't read music and sing more by ear for having great voice memory.

 Mike had 12 roses on the dining table for me this morning.  Tonight the plan for dinner is crab legs (probably at Harrison Casino in St. Charles) and a Movie.  Bryan and Ragena called early to sing happy birthday, which always feels nice!  Thank You~