Computer
Blue... 
The Computer...
Sitting at desk Monday (21st) hoping "not again..." because a pop-up box asked if i wanted to install critical updates for adobe so clicked yes thinking Adobe was harmless. My Pictures, My Music, Windows Media Player, and "Blue" Word.doc were all open on the desktop. Once yes was clicked My Music became Internet Explorer. The Task Bar locked up. The desktop icons wouldn't function. Only the items already open on the desktop worked. Start Menu wouldn't open. The mouse only had power over files & programs Already opened.
Oh Great! Immediately ctrl-alt-delete is pressed to open task manager to look under "processes" to see if explorer.exe is still listed. Why? Because last year while typing in Chapter 2 of book the system slowed down, locked up, crashed, carried away all data from firewall on back. Explorer.exe was still listed so closed box, went back to desktop, it took less than a minute. Suddenly the taskbar and all desktop icons disappeared. Returned to Task Manager (ctrl-alt-delete) only this time explorer.exe wasn't listed.
My heart started beating faster, spirit felt like it was beginning to sink. All very uncomfortable feelings. In Task Manager you can get into your computer by clicking "New Task." Did this to check files: WMP titles are listed but nothing inside the folders, all music is gone but on desktop it's still able to play as if music is still there...hmmm? My Pictures: title of folders are there but after clicking open is empty with no pictures. Yucky thoughts are coming to me.
Open Task Manager. Go to "new task" to run the internet to get on Explorer web-site to download Explorer 7 (which didn't work last year but need to do something). Download is starting. Decided to type Blue a note on word.doc file named "Blue" since it still worked on desktop. Was telling Father that i didn't think to have done anything wrong to deserve this to happen, don't know why or what really happened, but did check myself for sin or something that i may have done to cause this lack of blessing. Asked, or actually kind of begged Him for Mercy, realizing there was nothing further i could do, that if He wanted to bless me it's in His Hands cause to go off of previous experience, this isn't going to work...
On that note i decided to walk by faith by doing what was already in the day's plan, leaving the computer to finish downloading explorer 7while running an errand to the bank, still thinking the situation over, feeling this dying process going on inside, seeing how long it will take to re-install every program (again), how the last 14+ pages of the book may not have been transferred over and saved to the jumpdrive which means it will need to be written over, sinking my feelings even lower. How wmp has 7.22G of files which takes hours to rip onto computer, how quickbooks had been backed up earlier and most of the pictures were backed up to jumpdrive so this won't take as long to re-install. Basically, it became the attempt to accept what just happened in the realization of what it's going to take to fix it. Buying new computer was an option though the desire to save and leave money in savings took more effort to overcome because didn't really want to buy a new computer although it's not like this hasn't happened before but do i give computer to Duane to fix again and just keep taking the chance?
Got home - Ate some toast. Walked back & forth in kitchen talking to God outloud. You know what LORD, it is more important that You Be Truth. Who knows why this happened. If i did something, then it is more important that You Be Truth because we need You to Be that more than i need my computer fixed, i'll get over my little computer thing. Started to imagine being in Office Max or Best Buy looking for new computer, checking prices so to know how much to take out from savings, finally accepting the idea of having to start all over.
Went down to office & the screen saver pictures were running. Hmmm, wow? Didn't do that last time so felt there's hope. Hit enter. Sign in screen is there listing 3 programs as running. Great!!! Didn't do that last time either! Signed in. Felt very apprehensive. Felt hope. Felt the word "Please work". Opened up the system and just like when computer restarts, messenger, weatherbug, do you want to make a copy of files for recovery, etc. were on the desktop. The Task Bar was there. Desktop icons were there. For a few seconds i was afraid to touch it, wanted to watch it to see if it would disappear and when it didn't, decided to close programs slowly, still feeling apprehensive.
Nothing disappeared it was all working, all cooperating. That negative sinking feeling began to turn into deep feelings of gratitude. I got out of my chair. Got down on my knees. Bowed my head low to the ground and kissed the carpet to Thank God for doing this for me because i knew that if He didn't want to fix this then this computer crashed again and there was nothing i could have done about it, and there was nothing but absolute gratefulness to Him for saving me from having to start everything over! My God, He is Great.
The Computer... Sitting at desk Monday (21st) hoping "not again..." because a pop-up box asked if i wanted to install critical updates for adobe so clicked yes thinking Adobe was harmless. My Pictures, My Music, Windows Media Player, and "Blue" Word.doc were all open on the desktop. Once yes was clicked My Music became Internet Explorer. The Task Bar locked up. The desktop icons wouldn't function. Only the items already open on the desktop worked. Start Menu wouldn't open. The mouse only had power over files & programs Already opened. Oh Great! Immediately ctrl-alt-delete is pressed to open task manager to look under "processes" to see if explorer.exe is still listed. Why? Because last year while typing in Chapter 2 of book the system slowed down, locked up, crashed, carried away all data from firewall on back. Explorer.exe was still listed so closed box, went back to desktop, it took less than a minute. Suddenly the taskbar and all desktop icons disappeared. Returned to Task Manager (ctrl-alt-delete) only this time explorer.exe wasn't listed.
My heart started beating faster, spirit felt like it was beginning to sink. All very uncomfortable feelings. In Task Manager you can get into your computer by clicking "New Task." Did this to check files: WMP titles are listed but nothing inside the folders, all music is gone but on desktop it's still able to play as if music is still there...hmmm? My Pictures: title of folders are there but after clicking open is empty with no pictures. Yucky thoughts are coming to me.
Open Task Manager. Go to "new task" to run the internet to get on Explorer web-site to download Explorer 7 (which didn't work last year but need to do something). Download is starting. Decided to type Blue a note on word.doc file named "Blue" since it still worked on desktop. Was telling Father that i didn't think to have done anything wrong to deserve this to happen, don't know why or what really happened, but did check myself for sin or something that i may have done to cause this lack of blessing. Asked, or actually kind of begged Him for Mercy, realizing there was nothing further i could do, that if He wanted to bless me it's in His Hands cause to go off of previous experience, this isn't going to work...
On that note i decided to walk by faith by doing what was already in the day's plan, leaving the computer to finish downloading explorer 7while running an errand to the bank, still thinking the situation over, feeling this dying process going on inside, seeing how long it will take to re-install every program (again), how the last 14+ pages of the book may not have been transferred over and saved to the jumpdrive which means it will need to be written over, sinking my feelings even lower. How wmp has 7.22G of files which takes hours to rip onto computer, how quickbooks had been backed up earlier and most of the pictures were backed up to jumpdrive so this won't take as long to re-install. Basically, it became the attempt to accept what just happened in the realization of what it's going to take to fix it. Buying new computer was an option though the desire to save and leave money in savings took more effort to overcome because didn't really want to buy a new computer although it's not like this hasn't happened before but do i give computer to Duane to fix again and just keep taking the chance?
Got home - Ate some toast. Walked back & forth in kitchen talking to God outloud. You know what LORD, it is more important that You Be Truth. Who knows why this happened. If i did something, then it is more important that You Be Truth because we need You to Be that more than i need my computer fixed, i'll get over my little computer thing. Started to imagine being in Office Max or Best Buy looking for new computer, checking prices so to know how much to take out from savings, finally accepting the idea of having to start all over.
Went down to office & the screen saver pictures were running. Hmmm, wow? Didn't do that last time so felt there's hope. Hit enter. Sign in screen is there listing 3 programs as running. Great!!! Didn't do that last time either! Signed in. Felt very apprehensive. Felt hope. Felt the word "Please work". Opened up the system and just like when computer restarts, messenger, weatherbug, do you want to make a copy of files for recovery, etc. were on the desktop. The Task Bar was there. Desktop icons were there. For a few seconds i was afraid to touch it, wanted to watch it to see if it would disappear and when it didn't, decided to close programs slowly, still feeling apprehensive.Nothing disappeared it was all working, all cooperating. That negative sinking feeling began to turn into deep feelings of gratitude. I got out of my chair. Got down on my knees. Bowed my head low to the ground and kissed the carpet to Thank God for doing this for me because i knew that if He didn't want to fix this then this computer crashed again and there was nothing i could have done about it, and there was nothing but absolute gratefulness to Him for saving me from having to start everything over! My God, He is Great.
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