Dream Revelation 01.10.08 5:04am
~remember some wooden building that had a type of dome roof, this was where mike signed up for some program that was to make him stronger but the idea of the program was to inflict as much pain as he could take until he couldn't take it no more, then he would know how strong he was (it was sick) as the dream will reveal

~remember being in a store and mike vomitted this puddle of thick greasy looking yellow, not exactly grease but something and there was a box to the left on a flatbed crate, i walk over to it and see the same color of yellow on the design box and connected this color yellow to  his vomit and said, maybe this is what it is? i pick up the box and see the word "bacardi"

~then i remember being in another store, like a convenient store, mike was in there too, his young sister walks by, she is on the sidewalk out front and we see her through the windows, mike seen her first and draws my attention to her by saying, "that's what you'll look like"  she had her hair pulled back in pony tail and was cute, he meant that when i'm old i will still look young and alive

~then mike and i are in this house?  there were rooms... a kitchen, a bedroom.  In the kitchen there was stuff on the floor, empty paperbags, stuff... i look into mike's face and see his right eye, it looked swollen to me but you'd have to know him to know something was different.  After looking i said, you don't feel good, he admitted he didn't but then he goes to lay down on bed to get better, and i knew he was doing it to get better.  Now i'm in there to check on him, yet somehow before this it's like i was in there and seen him laying on the bed resting, but in this look i see and hold his head and there is a sheet but made out of heavier cotton making it like a blanet that fit around his head and under it was the shape of a lamb or goat or horse head but it was much smaller, i held it, noticing...

~then i'm in this room and mike is in a room directly above me, in hearing voices i recognize mike's so i put my ear up to the ceiling as best as possible, somehow i knew he was laying down (could see it though not in that room), and knew there was a man working on him- one of the tormenters, or workers of that program.  Mike was there getting more treatment, he wasn't fully recovered from the last thing but had to lay there as if he wasn't still badly pained.  Then i knew this guy had a drill and was drilling in his knee (could see it w/out being in that room), it hurt but i could hear and see a weak sick mike say twice, i'm not done yet (my heart was breaking downstairs, from the sound in his frail painful voice, his body embalmed with pain, and the sick treatment going on to supposedly make him tougher which was actually destorying him) for the guy was trying to inflict as much pain as possible to make mike give up, but he didn't want to, he was so sick and weak.  Helpless.  It hurt so bad. 

~the dream was lucid, meaning that i was awake while inside my dream dreaming, knowing that i was dreaming but able to function in the dream, and when i couldn't stand watching anymore i made myself stop dreaming, when i checked the clock this morning it was 5:04am.

PLEASE, I AM BEGGING YOU TO PRAY FOR MIKE'S CONTINUED PROTECTION OF INNER HEALING

~it is not easy to explain what my heart is feeling, and i only want it to stop and him be healed and loved and forgiven and whole, i feel mercy and compassion, love and sorrow, empathy, loving care and touch, i want to hold him, and love on him, take his pain away, no more pain.

~he believes he must be strong, just take the pain, he won't give up, even if you are hurting him as much as possible, even though this is not the program we should be signed into; he is being brave, but it's killing him to be this kind of brave, he doesn't need to be brave in this way; i feel that somewhere in the childhood he was forced to believe that this is how a man becomes strong and is a man, just take all the pain and let it keep coming but don't you dare act like it hurts, don't you dare show how much it hurts, you have to show how strong you are

~i feel there is the pain from the bad examples of authority figures from his childhood
~the bacardi is the drunk parents
~the yellow represents the father figures
~the vomit represents the bad example they were
~and now he is stuck fighting this pain to show he is a man, can take it, it won't beat him down, although it is

~i want people to pray for him, help him in prayer
~he needs help with a new way to think, that is why the head section of dream... i wasn't sure if it was a lamb, a goat, or horse head because it seemed like it was all 3.  The lamb would represent how his sins are forgiven.  The goat would represent all the sinful ways of thinking and behaving.  The horse would represent the thinking patterns and belief systems about how strong he must be to show he's a real man even though this is trusting in self to deliver self.  I need him to be prayed for and am pleading- please take the pain away.

pray to Father
he needs a miracle
a new mind
the mind of Christ
to be able to be loved
and know what it is
embrace it

~please Father let the miracle to happen in mike's life
~God please give mike a freedom to be born again like a little child and start over the new life in Christ
~let him learn that it's ok to be himself just the way he is
~he doesn't have to pretend somebody else-strong and
~please let him be happy and be able to love just for who Cindy is but also God let him see what is she really doing, all her help and love for mike
~thank You Jesus because i know You already gave what we are asking for-is already there- we just need to see it in the time when you want us to receive it- because for You God hours are years and years are hours

(hug)Amen
Thank You Alicja for praying
(hug)Amen

  THANK YOU LORD JESUS SO MUCH
   Thank You Father   

                   HEART                                          I LOVE YOU MIKE WITH ALL MY HEART